Wednesday, February 2, 2011

11:48pm I am Humbled

AS today is now coming to a close, Im gazing through Facebook, though its last and I am tired. I am also restless with tons on my mind. I write to my dear friend about Today and then click on my home page again. The first thing to catch my eye is my "like" to Joseph Prince..(thank You Aunt Maryanne for leading me to his preachings)And of Course The Bible verse in which he opens todays Note in is Philippians 4:19. So I go the the passage, I go a read verse 19. Then I decide My hear wants more. So I open the entire Chapter, and I have read this time and Time before, I have shared from this chapter on my status and between good Friends, in time of need. But TONIGHT! I am Humbled. I am Thankful. AND CAREFREE, Because I have chosen, to cast all my Cares upon HIM! HIM WHO STRENGTHENS ME!!!!...STRENGTHENS ME!!!!!! YES!
Thank You Lord, Thank you for Giving to me all that I have been blessed with. Thank YOU for believing in me, and Dieing for me, and Holding me! This life, though hard at times, thought tramatizing now and then, though I have seen, I have felt and I HAVE DONE MANY rotten things, he forgets me NOT! He keeps his watchful eye on me, and on my Family. This life....with all its ups and downs, with all my sins and joys, I WOULD NOT CHANGE! FOR ANYTHING. I am Humbled. I am Thankful.

There is controversy when it comes down to Sophies and any other human being with Hearing loss of all types. Controversy of the benefits and the debilitating effect CI's (the implants) could have on a person. I have read both sides of the story. The good, the bad, the ugly. Those who love it and praise God for allowing such technology to be apart of our World, and others who take it as just that Technology and what they call "NORMAL" people, just trying to make more "NORMAL" people out of those who have a disability. I myself have battled in my head...implants? no implants and just good ole Sign Language...Sophie is getting great at that.

I Want whats best for Sophie. If she can have the chance to hear...even if what she hears isnt, classified in what others call "NORMAL" thats ok! She will be my bionic AWESOMENESS! The Side effects are slim at best, with the Implants. The benefits completely out weigh the bad. And from what I have seen, ALL those who are against the CI's (even recipients) seem to have a bitter under-story. That really has nothing to do with the implant, but their lack of Joyfulness in life. I've come to the decision tooo....Go forward with the implants, for right now it will benefit our daughter more greatly to have them. So should decide that later in life when she is old enough to make different CHoices that she doesnt want to use the implant...then thats her choice. And WHY I WILL GO AGAINST ALL CI doctors and Audiologists and teachers who tell me to Completely cut out ASL...(SIGN LANGUAGE). Because in my opinion...having that 2nd language, be it spanish, french, Or SIGN LANGUAGE will always be SMART!
CI's will not make Sophia NO LONGER deaf. She will still be deaf. She will still be a beautiful, disabled, Woman who can hear! (as much sense as it makes)or not hear should she chose to not wear them, and why sign lanuage will be a fluent 2nd language of the Decker house hold.

SHE is profoundly deaf and I have finally come to terms with that. After todays Visit to the Doctor again and understanding a little bit more about Sophies condition...I have become Humbled and Perfectly happy with this path. Knowing that God sent her to us, made her this way, put her on this path, because IM the best MOM she could have and WILL always be that for her.

So read, and take it! Philippians 4:1-19

Philippians 4
1Therefore, my brethren dearly beloved and longed for, my joy and crown, so stand fast in the Lord, my dearly beloved.

2I beseech Euodias, and beseech Syntyche, that they be of the same mind in the Lord.

3And I intreat thee also, true yokefellow, help those women which laboured with me in the gospel, with Clement also, and with other my fellowlabourers, whose names are in the book of life.

4Rejoice in the Lord always: and again I say, Rejoice.

5Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand.

6Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.

7And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

8Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

9Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.

10But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly, that now at the last your care of me hath flourished again; wherein ye were also careful, but ye lacked opportunity.

11Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.

12I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.

13I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

14Notwithstanding ye have well done, that ye did communicate with my affliction.

15Now ye Philippians know also, that in the beginning of the gospel, when I departed from Macedonia, no church communicated with me as concerning giving and receiving, but ye only.

16For even in Thessalonica ye sent once and again unto my necessity.

17Not because I desire a gift: but I desire fruit that may abound to your account.

18But I have all, and abound: I am full, having received of Epaphroditus the things which were sent from you, an odour of a sweet smell, a sacrifice acceptable, wellpleasing to God.

19But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

More on Sophie and her condition and what her tests results have shown us stay "tuned"