Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Wolf pack

Last post, Last day of the month. August flew by and I surpassed my most posts in a month number and practically blogged everyday. Those who know me, and know me well, since I was in junior high. Know, I ALWAYS kept millions of pretty journaling notebooks with in reach. I wrote so much, Ive worked my little fingers into numb-nation now that Im "old". Not surprising since I still have a giant drawer full of journals from the age of 19 till now. Although now most of my journaling is done...right here. On this Blog. Where my fat fingers can move faster and Dont cramp as quick. "darn you carpal tunnel"...Ahhh its ok, I switched from scenic beautiful hard covered blank paged books, to blogger backgrounds that I can change from time to time. Season to season, theme to theme, mood to mood if I like. For everything in me, LOVES change. From my hair color, to my toe polish, to the way I drive to the market, to number of ways I'll rearrange my house furniture. Perhaps, Once, I was that of a real life gypsy. Perhaps, in my blood line, there was such a soul. Perhaps I was an inhabiter of a roaming animal. OO Perhaps. Maybe I shouldnt question the why? The where did it come from? and just live it. Im a traveler by heart and soul. Here it is, I feel like. The wind is telling me that the Fall will be crashing down quickly on us this year. Its bitterly cold today, after the warm week we had. So, they say it will warm up this weekend, but truly, FALL is right around the corner. I feel like the Actress from Chocolat, you know the One with Johnny Depp (yuuuummmy) Moving with the wind, place to place, rebuilding and renewing life each time. It was the Wind in that story, when it blew from the North, that swirled that get up and go vibe in her. ANDI wonder...Is it really so wrong to leave a trail of foot prints. To gather knowledge of many homes.????? Im not a creature of habit. Im not a pack rat. I find it funny actually, that twice this week, Friends who have been welcomed into my home, comment such as "wow you have so much room in here" "are you waiting for your furniture to still arrive" (thats a good one ) " my kids would love to have this space to run" ANd I Laugh, because It actually makes me feel good. While we do need a few more pieces of furniture...It will never be over crowded. My house is not spick and span, theres often spilled milk or a crumb trail of crackers or cheerios, that I leave till later in the day. Because my kids, are messsssssy as AM I, and it will be right back in that same spot after its picked up anyway. SO we save our cleaning time till evening. When the warm sun is passing over the mountains, bowing its head to the trees and greeting Another World on the other side! Our Story is much the same. We are, though as much as we have traveled, the Family we strive to be. Molding each other, ourselves, and the Character, that I hope, As we pass through many towns, Each of the Friends we make along the way DO infact see. Not perfection, Not smug, nor goodie two shoed, But Pleasant, Honest, trusting, FUN LOVING, open. We are true in our natures as lovers, For when we do bring others into our life, we love them wholly. We do not seek anything from them, But Loyalty as well. Yes, Times may get tough, and I, who speaks up mostly, who challenges and can butt heads with others, Is merely A woman. AND the simple Character of such to be protective, and loyal to my family and friends. Ones I keep close, which are few. But I am Loyal, and my friendships will with stand any battles (be it I start them or not) if that Friendship is meant to be, and thus Means something. Good friends, know with me, Prolonged bouts of not seeing each other or spending time together, comes with me...I know who my close friends are. AND that no matter what, we will start back up, where we left off. Its a part of my nature to roam, to be free, and yet, keep a piece of home with me. I trust my gut, when and where it leads us. Each time may not be a perfect move, but its a lesson, and experience We take with us then. Leaving behind our family crest and bringing memories with us. For while others may see our life style silly, intimidating, daunting, hard for the kids. For me, I am teaching them, More then I ever could with roots. We scale mountains. We have reached out and touched stars. We've sailed on an ocean, and blended with the burning sun on the driest American Soil. We have a pack. Joined together for the basic cause of just being together, surviving together. Through hardships, and Fantastic moments. We have seen it all, felt it all. Witnessed it from afar, or within ourselves. When matt and I end up arguing (sadly in front of kids)Emily's Instinct is very Alpha...Settle it Now, With her words of "Stop, we are all Family and we are always family"....hahaha usually ending with "dad". Shes my keeper! :) Im not a fighter. Unless I feel the need to jump into and physically or wordfully protect them that I love. I'll weld a quick growl of aggression, but if that warning shot is then ignored FULL ON TEETH be showing.
We are the ultimate, Traveling pack! Loyal to our family name. Soulful, and prideful.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

School house Rocks

I Took His Hand and Followed
Mrs. Roy L. Peifer

My dishes went unwashed today,
I didn't make the bed,
I took his hand and followed
Where his eager footsteps led.

Oh yes, we went adventuring,
My little son and I...
Exploring all the great outdoors
Beneath the summer sky

We waded in a crystal stream,
We wandered through a wood...
My kitchen wasn't swept today
But life was gay and good.

We found a cool, sun-dappled glade
And now my small son knows
How Mother Bunny hides her nest,
Where jack-in-the-pulpit grows.
We watched a robin feed her young,

We climbed a sunlit hill...
Saw cloud-sheep scamper through the sky,
We plucked a daffodil.

That my house was neglected,
That I didn't brush the stairs,
In twenty years, no one on earth
Will know, or even care.

But that I've helped my little boy
To noble manhood grow,
In twenty years, the whole wide world
May look and see and know.

So in thinking about School today. How preschool is expensive and How to prep and get Emily ready for kindergarten, I stumbled onto a thought process. Homeschooling. I have no intentions on sending Em to School this year, so to be ready for being 5, Im going to gather activities and musical songs to learn. Sophie and Emily will then learn and Hopefully Sophie will catch up and then be ahead when she starts school, and Emily hopefully will be beyond where she needs to be. She knows her preschool things already. While the socializing aspect is key...for now Playdates will have to do.

So Ill spend this year, gatherings, plotting, teaching, singing and making our little school house Rock

Monday, August 29, 2011

1 year

August 30th

Jitters, and thoughts, rambles and butterflies in stomach.
LONG drive
Ridgecrest California

The day we were told for sure, that Our Sophia Gabrielle was Deaf.
Choked back to tears.
Held it together.
Till we got back into the Van.
What was this going to mean for our family?
What did this say bout me as a mom? Because I didnt catch the difference sooner!

August 30th
Longer drive back to Fort Irwin

In one Hour it will be the 1 year Anniversary of Sophies Journey. Our families Journey as we gathered up information, and learned to use our hands as words. A Year that has brought us to more places, and closer as a unit.

I think back.
To my baby I dressed mostly in Pink. Ok lots of pink.
To my little girl, that only cried when it was bedtime.
To my little girl, who was carefree and giggly.
Who let the world hold her, and was comfortable enough to be left alone...meaning just laying around lol.

AS I gazed back at my photos from when we first came back to NY after Sophie was Born. I Dawned on me, I know Exactly When Sophie got sick. April. Right before we Moved back out of my parents house. Not sure of the date, or week. But As I was looking it all made sense.
Because I had taken photos while at the Doctors with Sophie, on 2 different dates in April.
It was also the same time, Sophie was having trouble with her breathing and was on the Nebulizer Machine. That she used the rest of the time we lived at my parents which wasnt too much longer, cuz we spent 3 weeks AT Dawns before we left for Florida at the end of May.

April 2009
3 months old.
It all makes sense.
Though watch once I see the paper work from Doctor Roses


So Beautiful

Then I look at the Pictures from the doctors,and yet shes still a wonderfully happy baby

Cant believe how freaking fast her infant months went by

Happy (as odd as it may sound to some) anniversary Baby girl.
You are perfect in every way.
A Super Star.
A beam of light.
A Super Cuddler.
A wonderful actress.
LIFE WOULD SIMPLY NOT BE, With out All my Kids, nor as interesting with out my Sophie Ge-Ge


Saturday, August 27, 2011

Gypsy do da deaf

Meet a Wonderful Family this afternoon. Their Daughter whos just about one. Was Born Deaf. Shes beautiful. Precious and Ready to take off and start walking soon. Loud and a scream just like Sophie, which kept making me SMILE! It was wonderful, to sit and talk Mommy to mommy about our daughters being Deaf. Having the same ideas about it, about implants, school, sign language and Life in general for all our children.
Its so wonderful having someone in a similiar situation to talk to now! Our kids seemed to get along WONDERFUL and She (the mommy) was great! I look forward to more play dates.

Washington, isnt everything I hoped it to be. The traveling is still going to be a ton since, would you know it, this place actually doesnt have speech therapy on post like I believed. Not that Tacoma, or even Seattle is as for as things were in Cali, but...still. While Im glad to be close to real life, it still baffles me. Army is supposed to be...Ugh I dont even know. They are supposed to make things easier on least I thought.
Another thing that baffles me is Audiologists, out of the hmmm 6 total audis and Doctors we've seen...1 knew a decent amount of Sign language. Even if you arent fluent, as someone who is hearing specialist and sees people with all ranges of loss, Wouldnt it be beneficial to learn more then 4 words??? Or so this mom thinks! lol.
Shouldnt it be a given, that caution signs, are plentiful and easy to put up. So when moving a family into a home, on post that you know has some disablity, why cant they just put up the MUCH needed caution signs, instead of making us Go fill out YET MORE PAPER WORK.

Thankfully, I havent seen too many crazy drivers yet, speeding down our block, but theres that chance ya know? Not that too many people pay attention to road signs anyway. At least Here in Washington. Sadly, we've been several places, busy cities and snow bird paradises where transplants from all over WORLD move to. Yet Washington BY far, WORST DRIVERS EVER! Id take freaked out Phoenix drivers in Monsoon season over the high ways here! LMBO! YES freaked out Phoenix drivers, as I witnessed because of lack of Rain...native Phoenix drivers mistake the blinker for wipers (and Visa Versa)in a storm and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SWERVE ALERT!!!!! cursing and hands thrown up into the air! BAHAHAHA.

The sad truth is that I feel as though My mind will never belong to a town I want to stick to. Might as well Buy an RV and call it home. WHEN WILL I BE SATISFIED? The only place I can ever say That I didnt want to run from until news about a baby growing in me Was Sumner! Funny huh? A Small, as middle of Crops, humdinger of a town. 30 mins away from the closest Kmart or Walmart, 1 cafe and 1 tiny 1 roomed movie thearter. Simplisity at its finest. BUT SUPER COLD COLD WINTERS! OUCH! It totally beat out Stupid DES MOINES AREA! I hated that town we lived in NEWTON! IT needs to fall off the map!

I wish I had a concrete plan, and Idea, and Knowledge of what it is we need to be doing, and where we need to be~ Cant just follow my heart...its been too many places to just pick one

Friday, August 26, 2011

Welcome Home

The Girls as they Jumped for joy that we are at our own home again! No more apts, no stairs, no more being yelled at for RUNNING around. Im sure that woman who lived below us is glad that we have gone away. As shes studying to be a doctor. lol. we are a noisy bunch.

The living room. Bright and airy, I dont even have enough furniture to make it look like people actually live here lmao. The Plan is to find Super cheap cheap odds and ends, like an old hutch and Older wide dresser. Sand them down and paint them to match our taste.
Im into Old beachy, cottage, french country side styling right now. Some how I have to blend that into our Black leather sofa BAHAHAHA.

Matts Giant Closet, hes claimed for himself and the vaccum ha. So Instead of it being a catch all army armory, I decided to put allllll his clothes and odds in there. Its big enough, and since he'll be using that room to change more often then Not,it just works. Besides our master bedrooms closet is tiny.

The local Splash park, and all its glory. As its back drop is that darn volcano...Mt Rainier. SUPER Pretty, but Of course, now being in washington. I think of Dantes peak ;) The splash park has been refreshing as up until this Gloomy freaky Friday we've had countless days of sun and fun and heat. I say Heat, and feel gross and sweaty, and then look at the temp and its like 78,sometimes 83...and it baffles me. I know what REAL heat feels like, YET this humidity has turns me into Soup.

Ryan loves the water, and has been the only one really get into it and enjoying the cool down. Though daddy had to jump in now and then and rescue him from the unexpected SPRAYS from every which way, now and then.

my little army brat, driving a truck ;)

We have this fabulous little back yard. We were going to fence it in, but then thought? WHY! Its fine the way it is. We are only yards from a nice little park and hills the ids enjoying rolling down.
We have enjoyed our back yard every day since moving in.
Emily with Side walk chalk, Sophie with a bat and ball, and Ryan...being Ryan.

The Carport and side door into kitchen.

Front of our house.

our street

The Back of the house!

playing in the Mole Hills Tehehe

this is the sun that heats up our livingroom to near 85-90 everyday lol

Not much else has changed besides our location again.
We are the same crazy, funny, loud, annoying family we always were and always will be. Im proud all of us are quirky and individuals and fun!
We are us, and that wont change.

this is funny because it looks like Sophie Wacked EM and knocked her down, but she didnt. Emily was Playing "puppy" and was crawling around the whole yard.

in the process of signing Tree! We have lots of them here :)

Ems got great Speed.

Things are in order. Life is amazing. God is Good!
We are doing jus Fine Thank you!
taking each day at a time and working on the Present right now. Not the Future. Because Courses always can change. Our Present will effect our future, Our Future Will reflect our present.

Now thats Summer is really coming to an End. I can see the trees changing Colors, the Leaves are pointing down (like Emily told me) and the allergies have been sprung upon me. I can not WAIT to decorate in Autumn theme.

Here In our New Home~