MOVE over fog horn...Sophie GeGe can top that hertz anytime! Ha just ask our neighboring Hotel stayers!
Last night was a nightmare to say the least! I thought "phew" everyone in bed sleeping at 10pm, even Matt! YES! Didnt say it out loud...but not even 5mins after I thought that, DRAMA! And for No apparent reason except...Sophie Likes her routine, and HATES big changes. I have noticed with her getting older Changes come at her very different! More dramatic more annoying!Her tolerance level has definitely depleted. I dont blame her at all! I get wheres shes coming from, its even out of her own control! BUT LORD knows last night was torture! And how the members of my family slept thru it without a peep...Is beyond me. But then when ryan wakes up after 2am...Em and Matt both get woken by him??? YEP!! and hes not even nearly as loud~ SIGHS ~
So even on about 3 hrs of my own sleep I got up at 7, got everyone dressed and thought I'd be brave and take them to the diner connected to the hotel...get out there, and its closed from a gas leak...WHY!!!!!???? ALl I wanted was some Damn eggs and coffee! Sadly kids had to settle for some Cold left over pizza :/ They apparently didnt mind too much and had a couple slices. Meanwhile, its only 10am and i feel like the day should have been half way over by now! SHIT! LMFAO! this trip to WASHINGTON is going to be rough! Thank God for Planned stops.
I've learned to pretty much set my self up for Sophies MONSTER melt downs..I dont mean bring it on myself, but more Be prepared for one to happen. KNowing Change is in her view. Its all about grapping on the nearest "ohh shit" handle and just ride it out! Of course, its not your typical 2 year old tantrum. ANd Mother hen SNOBS, who judge me or how I handle my kids can kiss my giant pale ass because handling a 2yr old with a hearing disablity, is like trying to rear a wild Horse! Beautiful...talented...potential (greatness and disaster) and she needs dedication.
Looking from the outside in people have two different opinions on her usually. Either...she timidates people, they dont know how to act around her and therefore ignore her mostly. Or when I say she has monster melts,they think "what? my SOphie? no way shes too sweet and funny". Then they see one and it Dawns on them the difficulty, that is until I tell them the one they just witnessed was a mini one. GOD's honest truth is Sophie has NEVER had one of these Scary freak outs that last hrs in front of non family members. Im not complaining at all! My kids are wonderful and especially in front of friends and strangers. Especially Sophie, shes so friendly. And a show off who always tries to make people laugh!
And so its all a survival game...the fits...to which we survive on a some what Daily basis.
Next survival is my Hip hop abs, protein-ing, low carbing weightloss plan...so excited to show how its really done. HEALTHFULLY! to rid my fat,it literally needs to be melted off and the only REAL way to do that is to burn it off and sweat it out!
ON WARDS to this next phase, hoping these hotel nights get better!!!!
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
La Push, At Twilight, Forks near a rainforest...means?
I would be lieing if I didnt say Im the biggest geek! And with that LOVE twilight Saga! So naturally moving to Washington state makes my fat little fingers MOVE at the speed of light researching key shot spots of the saga.
Seems to me tho, the little Town that could and once reportedly COULDNT!Has made good of the newly found fame the Twilight Books and movies gave them. Points of interest and dazzling signage all bout the life Stephenie Meyer and Not to mention the love triangle of Bella,Edward and Jacob,gave them.
But I must say too,these people must nothave watched the movie well! They feature items at restaurantes that are all about M.E.A.T!Please correct me if i am wrong, wasnt BELLA a Vegatarian!??? lmao!
AND um Edward didnt have a bed at first, and his room when he did was nice and light! Not dark and scary!
So im interested. I want to take that trek up, nearly the rest of the 101 highway, in which we are taking all the way from California coast! Onto the olympic Peninsula, a piece into the Hoh Rainforest, La Push beach! maybe even Port Angeles, if I can get my grumpy hubs to further North!
Yes its home to Vamps and wolves alike! But hey! Nothing like alittle drama to play up an ordinary day! Its also a great water fall place and fishing avenue!Which may just get Matt up there!
Well,Im excited! The Geek in me CAN NOT WAIT! Love hiking, Love beaches, Love history! Love exploring!
Seems to me tho, the little Town that could and once reportedly COULDNT!Has made good of the newly found fame the Twilight Books and movies gave them. Points of interest and dazzling signage all bout the life Stephenie Meyer and Not to mention the love triangle of Bella,Edward and Jacob,gave them.
AND um Edward didnt have a bed at first, and his room when he did was nice and light! Not dark and scary!
So im interested. I want to take that trek up, nearly the rest of the 101 highway, in which we are taking all the way from California coast! Onto the olympic Peninsula, a piece into the Hoh Rainforest, La Push beach! maybe even Port Angeles, if I can get my grumpy hubs to further North!
Yes its home to Vamps and wolves alike! But hey! Nothing like alittle drama to play up an ordinary day! Its also a great water fall place and fishing avenue!Which may just get Matt up there!
Well,Im excited! The Geek in me CAN NOT WAIT! Love hiking, Love beaches, Love history! Love exploring!
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Jump, Shake, Twist with Gypsy and WHOA a change!
My mind has been in a funk for days now! Really this whole month has been a blurr!
AS soon as we got word of when and where we are now being stationed life turned upside down!...As did my house! Packing was in full swing. Sold my dinning room table and made room in that extra space to set up all packed boxes...needless to say theres not to much walking room. Which is to my surprise. I truly am the complete opposite of a pack rat! If its not needed or hasnt been used in months, I do away with it! Some say its wasteful...but to me its refreshing, "out with the old, in with the new". Not to mention I cant stand CLUTTTTTTER!!!!!!!!!!!!
Being raised in a large family, all boys and pack rat parents Im proud to say, its their fault I throw things AWAY!!! lmao! ;)
Just get rid of it!, do you use it, when was it bought?does it work?...I tell people moving or organizing their homes...they dont always follow my advice, and then BAM! Hoardingmania happens all over again.
But see here I am among the rabble of boxes in my dinning room. OVERWHELMED! I know we are a family of 5 now! I know whatwe have is what we need,but itstill seems like sooo much! Especially the clothes and Toy department...geeeeesh spoiled kids, I have packed 3 santa bags of toys 2 toy boxes, and 3 cardboard boxes of toys...still having some left out so they arent bored...WTF??? lol...SPOILED KIDDIES WHOM I LOVE AND DESERVE IT ALL!
But again I say Im laughing...and Im overwhelmed, I was looking forward to another move. and Dare I say, this past year here in California has changed me EVEN MORE! Im ever changing...my mind, my soul, my personality (some im still quirky and insane) my thought process, my acceptance of myself and those around...ALLLLLL CHANGING!
Dare I say also, that I DONT EVER WANT TO DO A BIG MOVE AGAIN! Im ready to get to WASHINGTON, and plant those roots I'd been scared to let grow in the past! In fact, Im trying my darndest to convince Matt not to resign with Army and go out for something else he has always wanted, and I believe in him enough to accomplish! The police department! Then the only move we'd have to do is to the local PD he gets a job with!
This moving business is hard, While I used to love it! NOW! I think, FINALLY im over it. BIG moves anyway...small ones cross town. Not to bad! ;) this girl still needs to get her "change" on once and awhile!
PHEW!!!! that was hard to admit!...the Soul of my gypsy past life seems to be slipping behind...hypernating even. My constint mind changing will make her reappear im sure! But for now....My gypsy Soul for leaving is....at bay! Rest in peace my dreamer!
Funny enough, this Cat we adopted...we named her Gypsy! 9 lives...and mystery in her eyes, roams quietly! Shes an amazing kitty!
Oooo...and so! As we continue on this next Decker adventure, I have stress and my mind is racing and my need to just get this is powerful! oi! it cant come fast enough...2 weeks baby 2 weeks from today we hit the road...and Lord knows, Im not looking back!
AS soon as we got word of when and where we are now being stationed life turned upside down!...As did my house! Packing was in full swing. Sold my dinning room table and made room in that extra space to set up all packed boxes...needless to say theres not to much walking room. Which is to my surprise. I truly am the complete opposite of a pack rat! If its not needed or hasnt been used in months, I do away with it! Some say its wasteful...but to me its refreshing, "out with the old, in with the new". Not to mention I cant stand CLUTTTTTTER!!!!!!!!!!!!
Being raised in a large family, all boys and pack rat parents Im proud to say, its their fault I throw things AWAY!!! lmao! ;)
Just get rid of it!, do you use it, when was it bought?does it work?...I tell people moving or organizing their homes...they dont always follow my advice, and then BAM! Hoardingmania happens all over again.
But see here I am among the rabble of boxes in my dinning room. OVERWHELMED! I know we are a family of 5 now! I know whatwe have is what we need,but itstill seems like sooo much! Especially the clothes and Toy department...geeeeesh spoiled kids, I have packed 3 santa bags of toys 2 toy boxes, and 3 cardboard boxes of toys...still having some left out so they arent bored...WTF??? lol...SPOILED KIDDIES WHOM I LOVE AND DESERVE IT ALL!
But again I say Im laughing...and Im overwhelmed, I was looking forward to another move. and Dare I say, this past year here in California has changed me EVEN MORE! Im ever changing...my mind, my soul, my personality (some im still quirky and insane) my thought process, my acceptance of myself and those around...ALLLLLL CHANGING!
Dare I say also, that I DONT EVER WANT TO DO A BIG MOVE AGAIN! Im ready to get to WASHINGTON, and plant those roots I'd been scared to let grow in the past! In fact, Im trying my darndest to convince Matt not to resign with Army and go out for something else he has always wanted, and I believe in him enough to accomplish! The police department! Then the only move we'd have to do is to the local PD he gets a job with!
This moving business is hard, While I used to love it! NOW! I think, FINALLY im over it. BIG moves anyway...small ones cross town. Not to bad! ;) this girl still needs to get her "change" on once and awhile!
PHEW!!!! that was hard to admit!...the Soul of my gypsy past life seems to be slipping behind...hypernating even. My constint mind changing will make her reappear im sure! But for now....My gypsy Soul for leaving is....at bay! Rest in peace my dreamer!
Funny enough, this Cat we adopted...we named her Gypsy! 9 lives...and mystery in her eyes, roams quietly! Shes an amazing kitty!
Oooo...and so! As we continue on this next Decker adventure, I have stress and my mind is racing and my need to just get this is powerful! oi! it cant come fast enough...2 weeks baby 2 weeks from today we hit the road...and Lord knows, Im not looking back!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Down By The River - Music by HoneyHoney.
Heard this song on "Brothers and Sisters" Show On Sunday! Beautiful! Sticks in your head. Love her voice!
Just found it, Not so mucha hit yet but I love it!!!!!!!
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Leaving Barstow
Theres this crap movie called leaving Barstow. So amist todays joyful news I found it quite the fitting title.
At 6am This morning matt scared me half to death mid dream. He looked mad at first, but what can I tell out of it and eyes only half open."its MAY 3rd" he yelled. "Ummyea..." I replied~ "yea well be at FORT LEWIS byJune 10th" pointing his finger at me flashing a big ole grin. By then my eyes were wide open! So many times he had tricked me, andthis time he was serious. But at 6am....GRRRRRR i couldnt fall back to sleep and went down stairs to have him pull up the system online so i can see for myself. And there it was.FINALLLLLLLLLY!
Bitter sweet as I will miss the few ladies I love here, and the comfort of the Sandy Basin pool on the hot days! But I will not miss
Toronado like winds, scorpions, poisonous snakes, Bitches who spread the gossip here and go out of their way to be mean. I will not miss this nasty Commissary or the long ass drives to civilization and Doctor appointments.
We will be able to start Sophies surgery and speech therapy. BE SOMEWHERE GREEEEEN! Somewhere that rains! (washington state obviously rains a ton). Will be close to a community school for me to take classes that mean something. Have snow! and Seasons! Near Beaches!
Although its not closer to NY, and although Ill be really far from home when deployments happen, we will be in a better location then we are now. No more scary sun spiders and giant black spiders to worry about!
Another fresh start for this Family.
Our moving time frame, will mean we lived in Cali, exactly a year. California is nothing spectacular, Im not even gonna bat an eye or look back when we cross state lines.But at least I can say we've been there, lived there, saw that, felt the pacific ocean. Saw Hollywood and San Diego zoo! Cant forget Cali! Its Ryans Birth state!
But we cant wait to take that final drive off! Kiss the Coyote and pass the painted rocks.
That trip down that lonely and dusty two way highway will be so wonderful...knowing we wont be headed back through those empty Mountains...
Good Bye Fort Irwin! Thanks for Showing us what we dont want in a Military Base!
Im sure ill have something to complain about in Washington! After All im Becci and Im woman and mom and wife, and complaining is what I do! but to know that being Army also means we get to move and see other places, curves my raints...at the same time, being in the program we are in for Sophie (efmp) means we can try and stay in one place longer then the average! If we like it that much. We are also being told now that EFMP gives usother advantages in the moving part. Fast turn out and faster new housing! So hopefully we will be leaving before May is over! Otherwise...June bloom for another Decker ADVENTURE!!!
At 6am This morning matt scared me half to death mid dream. He looked mad at first, but what can I tell out of it and eyes only half open."its MAY 3rd" he yelled. "Ummyea..." I replied~ "yea well be at FORT LEWIS byJune 10th" pointing his finger at me flashing a big ole grin. By then my eyes were wide open! So many times he had tricked me, andthis time he was serious. But at 6am....GRRRRRR i couldnt fall back to sleep and went down stairs to have him pull up the system online so i can see for myself. And there it was.FINALLLLLLLLLY!
Bitter sweet as I will miss the few ladies I love here, and the comfort of the Sandy Basin pool on the hot days! But I will not miss
Toronado like winds, scorpions, poisonous snakes, Bitches who spread the gossip here and go out of their way to be mean. I will not miss this nasty Commissary or the long ass drives to civilization and Doctor appointments.
We will be able to start Sophies surgery and speech therapy. BE SOMEWHERE GREEEEEN! Somewhere that rains! (washington state obviously rains a ton). Will be close to a community school for me to take classes that mean something. Have snow! and Seasons! Near Beaches!
Although its not closer to NY, and although Ill be really far from home when deployments happen, we will be in a better location then we are now. No more scary sun spiders and giant black spiders to worry about!
Another fresh start for this Family.
Our moving time frame, will mean we lived in Cali, exactly a year. California is nothing spectacular, Im not even gonna bat an eye or look back when we cross state lines.But at least I can say we've been there, lived there, saw that, felt the pacific ocean. Saw Hollywood and San Diego zoo! Cant forget Cali! Its Ryans Birth state!
But we cant wait to take that final drive off! Kiss the Coyote and pass the painted rocks.
Good Bye Fort Irwin! Thanks for Showing us what we dont want in a Military Base!
Im sure ill have something to complain about in Washington! After All im Becci and Im woman and mom and wife, and complaining is what I do! but to know that being Army also means we get to move and see other places, curves my raints...at the same time, being in the program we are in for Sophie (efmp) means we can try and stay in one place longer then the average! If we like it that much. We are also being told now that EFMP gives usother advantages in the moving part. Fast turn out and faster new housing! So hopefully we will be leaving before May is over! Otherwise...June bloom for another Decker ADVENTURE!!!
Saturday, April 30, 2011
When it rains it hales
Last year something happened. I got to spend time with another member of my biological family! Which was great in getting a glimpse into the family I barely know! For those of you who dont know! I was adopted by my Biological mothers sister, officially when I was 3. Grew up always knowing I was adopted and truth be told, in adoption its best to always make that known,the Child deserves to know. My family is Great! My dad always worked hard for us, my Mother spent her days pining over our affection and time spent with her! Took care of us and was always our back-up. My 3 crazy brothers, always made the day interesting and I like to think my best of friends with my Brother John, whos only 3 years younger then I. Ups and downs in our family. Horrible Illness-spats of fighting-clingy-ness-independence and at the end of a 24 year roller coaster ride...a divorce!
Leading us all to our separate ways! Family I barely speak to, and cant see! Only because we live so away.
When My hubs and I ran off to Florida last year we spent time with my Aunt! A blood relative! And I remember in the first few times she had asked me this..."Am I anything like your mother?" weird to ask one would think right away! Right?
Well, at first! I said no! But now as time has passed by! I realize in fact...she is just like my mom, and my mom just like her, and I...JUST LIKE THE BOTH OF THEM!...stubborn, grudge keeping, neurotic (about different things sure, but the extend of it all is closely related),loving with all our person! sparatic! Ever changing! scared! Holding back of emotion until it explodes,clingy, bossy! huge MOOD swings!Paranoid! A battle with in us,that puts a wall around us! RESENTMENT! Easy to write people off! the list of our similarities could go on! GOOD and BAD!
Ive always said I have a gypsy soul! And While I still believe that true...and more truer as my days progress on, and im molding more into....dare I say it!
I can now say that the true factor that over takes who I am as A person, especially in my state of mind right now (upset at my husband) that In my emotions "HALE" the Name to which Myself and these ladies where born into,previals! Making me say "when it storms it HALES".
All beautiful women! All covering up deeply emotional wounds that bring us"close" in our stories~in our lives~even with out spoken words!
Theres really no denying the strength of this blood line~
Leading us all to our separate ways! Family I barely speak to, and cant see! Only because we live so away.
When My hubs and I ran off to Florida last year we spent time with my Aunt! A blood relative! And I remember in the first few times she had asked me this..."Am I anything like your mother?" weird to ask one would think right away! Right?
Well, at first! I said no! But now as time has passed by! I realize in fact...she is just like my mom, and my mom just like her, and I...JUST LIKE THE BOTH OF THEM!...stubborn, grudge keeping, neurotic (about different things sure, but the extend of it all is closely related),loving with all our person! sparatic! Ever changing! scared! Holding back of emotion until it explodes,clingy, bossy! huge MOOD swings!Paranoid! A battle with in us,that puts a wall around us! RESENTMENT! Easy to write people off! the list of our similarities could go on! GOOD and BAD!
Ive always said I have a gypsy soul! And While I still believe that true...and more truer as my days progress on, and im molding more into....dare I say it!
I can now say that the true factor that over takes who I am as A person, especially in my state of mind right now (upset at my husband) that In my emotions "HALE" the Name to which Myself and these ladies where born into,previals! Making me say "when it storms it HALES".
All beautiful women! All covering up deeply emotional wounds that bring us"close" in our stories~in our lives~even with out spoken words!
Theres really no denying the strength of this blood line~
Monday, April 25, 2011
Tearful Mommy Moments, and my middle Finger!
Today, is a day just like any other. Theres not really anything different or exciting going on. we are still in our Pj's and just been cleaning while Major Tornado's come behind me and destroy it again! So I took a break! Turned on OC housewives, of course with Captions on, because with my 3 kids running around playing "house" you cant hear a darn word.
Of course, When you sit back and take a moment just to watch little kids in action you remember that all things simple, are the most fun! They Could have a million noise making, shaking, moving on their own, talking toys,but the biggest hits will be the Old worn, Minature plastic Play house dolls(we one they fight over all the time). A man with no hands and permanent marker all over his wrestling body, a Few Balls, and empty Easter Baskets seem to be the Toys of choice! My kids can take anything and Make it Fun! They use of a jump rope as a balance Beam, The ottoman as a bed, balls as extra "Kids" and imaginary friends that come to visit! The moments that make me proud and thankful is to see my girls,play together. NICELY with out any hiccup of a fight! Then to see Ryan "try" and Join in. AS long as hes next them, minding his own business sucking on some kind of toy, or using his bottle as a travel mug, hes happy as a clam!
Of course, It was this morning as Im watching OC housewives, I had a mini-happy melt down. Sophie had Scrapped her foot outside during a friends birthday party when she took her shoes off. So a tiny piece of skin is missing, and you would think her foot was falling off. She keeps holding it and making her sad face. :) too cute! Again this morning is when sh ran to me,holding up that foot for me to magically kiss the boo-boo all better! FOR THE MILLIONITH TIME! So I kiss it and quickly off she goes to play like nothing is wrong. Which for some reason started this happy tear. Her communication with Us has gotten so much better. Yes, she has a scary crazy temper...but really more then that, shes so gentle and simple and easy. I started Crying! My kids are amazing. My family is amazing! And Though sometimes are hard and I flip out. I really couldnt ask to have it any other way! Or Any better! Attitude and All I love it dearly!
Sophies ability to be so cute! Makes me melt! She touches Ryans head with a pat and a rub. Smiles at him with such love. When she saw Emily for the first time this morning she ran to her and gave her two big hugs. Hugs daddy every time he walks thru the door. Walks him out by holding door for him and waving goodbye out the window (after she slams door behind him of course). She has Matts need for CLean and helps clean up better then Emily does, whose a natural slob like me! Is obsessed with Dr.Seuss books (mostly green eggs and ham) Loves action adventure scenes like jumping off building and seeing white water rafting, she gets her excited face on and keeps giving High fives. Finally starting to potty train (thank the Lord).
In no way shape or form does her deafness hinder who she is. Or what she wants. And fingers crossed with our help,she'll never feel it! Though, sadly kids are mean, and I see her left out a lot, with groups of kids :( and that breaks my heart! Shes resourceful and finds something to do on her own, or hangs with Ryan and I, with Adults. Who sadly to say, still arent as "accepting" of her,SOME that is! Not everyone! People are ignorate and they dont get it! Especially Women (no offense to some)they seem to be so judgemental of Children and compare and contrast and make COMPETITIONS out of everything, especially Child rearing! Which is so sad. Sometimes I want to burst out of my comfort zone and composure and SLAP a Bi-otch! Like,seriously, I could care less if your 2 year old daughter, can say supercalifragilisticexpialidocious front and backwards while doing a cartwheel and blowing bubbles out their ears! really? Really? Some of them sit there smug saying "well...BLAH BLAH BLAH my son, my daughter, at their age...I never allow that, or this. " like really? Dont you see my invisble Middle FINGER WAVING AT YOU!? If I didnt have some Class, I'd never be invited anywhere!
Its like "hey thanks for trying to put my kids in a soap box"
LIke lets see...sly remarks on my parenting "oo my kids know not to write on walls even if I have to hover over them while they have crayons"...SMACK in my face because they went thru a phase. Hello its not the end of the world. Magic eraser or some paint bitch! Get over it!!!!!!!!!!
Or to be slapped in my face this weekend, while talking about the saying that while Pregnant with girls, they say they steal the mothers beauty! Someone looked at me and laughed when I said that and said
"Well then I guess they took a lot huh?".....A**HOLE! Thanks I feel so great now! again I laugh it off while putting an invisible middle finger up!
Have I mentioned how "WONDERFUL ARMY WIVES here at FORT IRWIN" are lately! *~*~GAG~*~*
So...All in all! I just love this family, and Im happy, and Im happy to spend it mostly at home, eating air popped pop corn in our Pjs watching Mickey Mouse Club house,and of course Bloggin!~
Word to the wise, if you wonder! What to say, in regards to Sophie or any other uniquely wonderful person! Never say, You feel bad, or sorry for them, or put them in a box~ Especially so young! Be it for something in life like, being deaf, blind, sick, hard time reading, spelling, OCD, CP, diabetic, ADD, ADHD, Autistic, allergies, limb issues, deformities, premies, OR whatever else "different" is out there. Just be kind, Be sweet! Be sincere! With good intentions, and never with labels. Sometimes, ignorance makes her look stupid! Sorry! If you dont like what Im saying! BUt until you know...what its like! Being insensitive and judgemental is not becoming!
Im growing a bigger pair of mommy "balls" and Dont let me catch you saying anything about my kids with any distain! OR about disablities (even small)Cuz ima be a bull!
I dont wish to change my family, just how most people immediately think! Harsh World because people dont think before they speak!
Of course, When you sit back and take a moment just to watch little kids in action you remember that all things simple, are the most fun! They Could have a million noise making, shaking, moving on their own, talking toys,but the biggest hits will be the Old worn, Minature plastic Play house dolls(we one they fight over all the time). A man with no hands and permanent marker all over his wrestling body, a Few Balls, and empty Easter Baskets seem to be the Toys of choice! My kids can take anything and Make it Fun! They use of a jump rope as a balance Beam, The ottoman as a bed, balls as extra "Kids" and imaginary friends that come to visit! The moments that make me proud and thankful is to see my girls,play together. NICELY with out any hiccup of a fight! Then to see Ryan "try" and Join in. AS long as hes next them, minding his own business sucking on some kind of toy, or using his bottle as a travel mug, hes happy as a clam!
Of course, It was this morning as Im watching OC housewives, I had a mini-happy melt down. Sophie had Scrapped her foot outside during a friends birthday party when she took her shoes off. So a tiny piece of skin is missing, and you would think her foot was falling off. She keeps holding it and making her sad face. :) too cute! Again this morning is when sh ran to me,holding up that foot for me to magically kiss the boo-boo all better! FOR THE MILLIONITH TIME! So I kiss it and quickly off she goes to play like nothing is wrong. Which for some reason started this happy tear. Her communication with Us has gotten so much better. Yes, she has a scary crazy temper...but really more then that, shes so gentle and simple and easy. I started Crying! My kids are amazing. My family is amazing! And Though sometimes are hard and I flip out. I really couldnt ask to have it any other way! Or Any better! Attitude and All I love it dearly!
Sophies ability to be so cute! Makes me melt! She touches Ryans head with a pat and a rub. Smiles at him with such love. When she saw Emily for the first time this morning she ran to her and gave her two big hugs. Hugs daddy every time he walks thru the door. Walks him out by holding door for him and waving goodbye out the window (after she slams door behind him of course). She has Matts need for CLean and helps clean up better then Emily does, whose a natural slob like me! Is obsessed with Dr.Seuss books (mostly green eggs and ham) Loves action adventure scenes like jumping off building and seeing white water rafting, she gets her excited face on and keeps giving High fives. Finally starting to potty train (thank the Lord).
In no way shape or form does her deafness hinder who she is. Or what she wants. And fingers crossed with our help,she'll never feel it! Though, sadly kids are mean, and I see her left out a lot, with groups of kids :( and that breaks my heart! Shes resourceful and finds something to do on her own, or hangs with Ryan and I, with Adults. Who sadly to say, still arent as "accepting" of her,SOME that is! Not everyone! People are ignorate and they dont get it! Especially Women (no offense to some)they seem to be so judgemental of Children and compare and contrast and make COMPETITIONS out of everything, especially Child rearing! Which is so sad. Sometimes I want to burst out of my comfort zone and composure and SLAP a Bi-otch! Like,seriously, I could care less if your 2 year old daughter, can say supercalifragilisticexpialidocious front and backwards while doing a cartwheel and blowing bubbles out their ears! really? Really? Some of them sit there smug saying "well...BLAH BLAH BLAH my son, my daughter, at their age...I never allow that, or this. " like really? Dont you see my invisble Middle FINGER WAVING AT YOU!? If I didnt have some Class, I'd never be invited anywhere!
Its like "hey thanks for trying to put my kids in a soap box"
LIke lets see...sly remarks on my parenting "oo my kids know not to write on walls even if I have to hover over them while they have crayons"...SMACK in my face because they went thru a phase. Hello its not the end of the world. Magic eraser or some paint bitch! Get over it!!!!!!!!!!
Or to be slapped in my face this weekend, while talking about the saying that while Pregnant with girls, they say they steal the mothers beauty! Someone looked at me and laughed when I said that and said
"Well then I guess they took a lot huh?".....A**HOLE! Thanks I feel so great now! again I laugh it off while putting an invisible middle finger up!
Have I mentioned how "WONDERFUL ARMY WIVES here at FORT IRWIN" are lately! *~*~GAG~*~*
So...All in all! I just love this family, and Im happy, and Im happy to spend it mostly at home, eating air popped pop corn in our Pjs watching Mickey Mouse Club house,and of course Bloggin!~
Word to the wise, if you wonder! What to say, in regards to Sophie or any other uniquely wonderful person! Never say, You feel bad, or sorry for them, or put them in a box~ Especially so young! Be it for something in life like, being deaf, blind, sick, hard time reading, spelling, OCD, CP, diabetic, ADD, ADHD, Autistic, allergies, limb issues, deformities, premies, OR whatever else "different" is out there. Just be kind, Be sweet! Be sincere! With good intentions, and never with labels. Sometimes, ignorance makes her look stupid! Sorry! If you dont like what Im saying! BUt until you know...what its like! Being insensitive and judgemental is not becoming!
Im growing a bigger pair of mommy "balls" and Dont let me catch you saying anything about my kids with any distain! OR about disablities (even small)Cuz ima be a bull!
I dont wish to change my family, just how most people immediately think! Harsh World because people dont think before they speak!
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